(8 years ago)
~Rhea ♡
Mahatma Gandhi once said, hate the sin, love the sinner. Don't indulge in the sin, indulge in the sinner. Despise the crime, love the criminal. In my case, I love the sin and the sinner.
The sinner, Kaden. The sin, indulging in the fucked up things he's doing, including ravaging my mouth. I don't want it to stop. I don't want him to stop.
The feeling of his hands on my body, even with my clothes on are burning in a really good way. His left arm's around my waist. His right arm is behind my head, pinning it in place.
He bites my lower lip into his mouth, licking it. His tongue finds mine and latches onto it, playing with it.
I can feel his eyes watching me but i keep my eyes closed, wanting to engrave this in my head and my soul. This can definitely be counted as my first real kiss and I love it, everything about it. Why it happened, who i kissed, more like who is devouring my mouth but I love it and it's because I am doing it with Kaden.
I try to pick up my pace, my tongue meets his and i let him feast on my lips, kiss them, suck on them and bite them.
I hear a sound and I realise it's from me. I just moaned. Kaden bit my lower lip and is now sucking on them. For a while, I forget about everything and everyone and I focus on the kiss that might make me faint due to lack of oxygen.
Just as I think I'm about to pass out, Kaden pulls away and I greedily breathe in so much air I almost choke. My breaths are fast and I'm sure my lips are swollen, maybe my lower lip is bleeding. Feels like it is. I don't focus on that though, I look at the person that made me turn to a breathing mess.
His eyes, they're shining with pure, dark lust. They're dark with dangerous lust. He is not panting like I am. He speaks audibly but only so I can hear him. "Luna, if these idiots weren't here, I would've fucked you right here, right now." Even his voice sounds dark with lust and I know he means every words.
My brain is so useless right now. I can't even string together a proper sentence as a response to what he just said. Work stupid brain. Work.
A word leaves my mouth in a squeaky kind of way. "Oh". Really brain, that's the best you could come up with.
He laughs, no, more like chuckles, the sound reaching my stupid heart and my lower abdomen and my core. It takes everything in me to resist the urge to rub my thighs together.
"Are you two done or we should leave so you both can have a quickie." Xavier and the other two guys all have a smile on their faces. Except for Reid, he is smirking. It's one of those smirks you give once you find out your victim's weakness.
"Don't ruin the moment. Kaden just kissed the girl. Never seen him do that before" Adrian and Xavier face each other and talk about Kaden and I as if we're not standing a few feet away from him.
But that's not what I'm thinking about. They've never seen Kaden kiss a girl before. A giddy little Rhea, thinks there's a possibility I am Kaden's first kiss. The grumpy little Rhea, thinks there's a higher possibility he has not only kissed other girls, but also had sex with them.
"You two can continue later. We need to get the kerosene and alcohol. Time waits for no love birds". Reid walks away with the ball in his hands. Adrian and Xavier follow Reid with an infuriating grin on their faces and they're still talking. It's about kaden and I. I can tell.
Kaden holds my hand in his and we follow the other guys.
On a normal day, I would've asked what they needed alcohol and kerosene for, but today is no normal day and I think my brain is fried.
I can't even string proper words together. What the fuck brain, I really hate you.
After a few walks, we finally reach the car. My ankle hurts like a bitch. How the fuck did I play basketball with it. Technically, when it comes to basketball I become stupid and ignorant to everything else. Except Kaden.
The other thing I was focused on while playing was Kaden. That's the thing about Kaden. He steals my attention, my focus, my everything, whether he's physically with me or not. I think about him and he remains in my head for hours. Malena thinks I'm in love with him. I am not, right. Sometimes, even I feel like I'm lying to myself.
I watch as the boys fill the truck with kerosene and alcohol, mostly alcohol and move to wear my mask before speaking. My brain can finally think straight and now I'm wondering what they need so much alcohol and kerosene for.
I hope they're not trying to burn down a whole house. I once heard a rumor about the reapers burning a whole family alive. There's a reason it's a rumor. It's not true. What is true though, is the fact that if the reapers wanted to burn a whole city down, they could and they'd do it successfully.
"Landon?" I spot my best friend in the parking lot, he's wearing a hoodie and is trying to hide his face. Why in the world, is my best friend here. He hates the reapers, except for Kaden. According to him, he makes me happy and that's why he likes him.
"Adrian's younger brother?" I nod as confirmation to Kaden's question and point to where I saw him. Landon isn't looking up which means he can't see me or the reapers. Even I can barely see his face, thanks to.his back and the hoodie but I can bet my life's savings he's Landon.
"Is he coming with us?"
"No, Adrian didn't say anything about bringing his brother." Adrian isn't gerrymandering and neither is Reid. They both went to get some 'equipments' from the building we first went into when we got here.
Xavier speaks beside me with his eyes glued to Landon and oh boy, if looks could kill. "That's because Adrian didn't know his brother would be here. He shouldn't be here."
"I'll get him out of here, incase I don't come back early, I'll meet you guys there." Without waiting for Kaden and I, he walks over to where Landon is. Landon is taken aback when he sees Xavier. Xavier removes his hoodie and drags him from my view.
What the hell?
"Are you sure leaving Ladon with Xavier is a good idea?" My eyes are still on where Landon was thirty seconds ago.
"Why are you so worried about him. Xavier wouldn't hurt his friend's brother." That's a little bit convincing.
"He's my best friend of course I'd be worried about him. Plus, he's now alone with a..."
"A reaper." Kaden completes my statement coldly, with anger. Why is he angry.
"Rhea..." He blocks my view and the only thing i can see is his sturdy chest.
"When will you stop thinking the reapers are people who have no other thing to do than to destroy and kill. And stop worrying about him and focus on me or I'll make you."
His jaw ticks and I think he's pissed.
"I don't think you have no other thing than to destroy and kill. You play basketball..."
"The others too. They play basketball."
"I also heard they're narcissistic unfeeling bastards, that fuck around and love destruction and murder."
"So you think I am narcissistic, an unfeeling bastard, you think I fuck around and that I love destruction and murder?" I'm speechless. Should I reply with a no or a yes. I don't know. I choose not to answer.
I feel like if I do I'll ruin everything. I don't want this to end yet.
"I'll take your silence as a yes." I see a dark gleam in his eyes and I'd be lying if I said I'm not scared. He grabs my shoulder in a tight grip but it doesn't hurt. His eyes are as dark as the gray clouds and they're just as cold. His eyes are so dark they're almost black, eyes so lifeless, one would think they're almost dead. His eyes are emotionless, they hold no silver of reaction and they're still dark and unreadable.
He wraps right hand around my throat, his girp tight enough but doesn't cut off my breathing. A normal person would be scared, beg, cry or try to run away, but I stop moving and level him with a glare. To say I am not scared is a lie, but he doesn't need to know that.
"Since you believe those rumors, why are you here then. What makes you think I won't kidnap you, or worse, rape you, kill you. What makes you think I won't force my dick into every fucking hole you have, I mean you already kissed me Rhea, maybe I should take that as an invitation to tear through your cunt with my dick."
My pulse spikes and I can't help the feeling of vulnerability and fear that courses through me. His cold, rough gaze studies me, probably sensing the fear. I'm pretty sure it's written all over my face.
I have no doubt Kaden will act on his words if I push him to. A part of me wants him to act on the kidnapping part and the last part too.
Kaden has never hurt me, but just because he hasn't doesn't mean he won't eventually. A sick part of me has been anticipating, waiting for that day to come.
Kaden, he brought out that sick part in me. The one that think it's fine if Kaden hurts me, simply because he'll bring pleasure with the pain.
My lips are parted, my words have failed me so much in just a few hours and it's a because of Kaden.
"Will you hurt me?" I whisper as if my own voice terrifies me. A sadistic gleam passes through his eyes and a shiver rakes up my spine. I once heard Landon speaking to some girls that were drooling over Kaden. He said, "you girls are drooling over a high functioning sociopath that'll never acknowledge your existence."
I used to think Kaden might be asocial, but not a sociopath. The aura Kaden is giving off right now is suffocating. It's like he'll wrap his hands around my neck and choke me till I go all limp and lifeless in his hand.
"Yes Rhea, I do want to hurt you."
How can he say that with so much calm, without stuttering or hesitating. The look in his eyes though, I can't decipher it. I am never able to.
"Why". The dark look in is eyes is still very much frightening, I think that's why my voice came out as a silent whisper. Right now, i need my immune system to acknowledge the fact that my voice should be louder, especially in this situation.
Honestly, it has always been like this with Kaden. Everytime he does something, I stare, watch and engrave it in my head.
Six weeks ago, Kaden and his friends got drunk, Malena recieved a call from the bartender to come pick up her brother from the bar and so did Landon. I might have lied about wanting to help Malena and Landon so I could see Kaden, but I did help Malena and Landon at some point.
That day at the bar, Reid was out of it and his butler came for him, so it was just Kaden and I. Most of the time, whenever I am around Kaden I have a mask on. I don't know why but I do. My dad might rich, popular and famous, but not his daughter. Sure, everyone knows he has a daughter but most people don't know what she looks like. She, as in me. Most times, when I'm out with my parents, I have a mask on too. This isn't because I'm scared of flashing lights and people fake liking me. No. I hate peopling.
That's why I most times have a mask with me whenever I'm with Kaden. Just like at the bar, a few girls were staring at me but the looks and stares increased when I wrapped Kaden's arms around my shoulder, and my arm, around his waist. I had to take Kaden home using a cab. His home, not mine.
After we got to his house, I basically had to drag Kaden and myself to his room. No one was home to help and Kaden's weight is no joke for a small girl like me and I am not small, but compared to Kaden, I am small.
After I carefully dropped him on his bed, he jumped right back off and started taking off his clothes, while maintaining eye contact with me. He left only his boxers on. "Most times, i sleep naked when I'm drunk but you're here Luna, I don't think you're ready to see my cock yet". Then he grabbed me and yanked me down till I was half laying on him, the other half on the bed. I couldn't speak, i didn't want to, because I felt I would've said gibberish or something stupid like right now.
Back then, I watched him with take off his clothes and I also watched him while he was asleep as if it's something new, as if it isn't something I also do everyday. I also watched his finger that was stroking my waist, and to be honest, I didn't want him to stop.
He might be looking at me with that dark gaze, but I don't want him to stop, I don't want my voice to come out loud and clear and ruin the whole thing.
His eyes leave mine and they move lower. He's staring at my lips and I can't help the feeling of wanting his lips on mine again.
Instead of answering my question, Kaden lowers his head and traps my lower lip in his mouth, biting, sucking, licking.
A tingling sensation shoots to my lower belly and I have the urge to rub my thighs together.
Kaden bites down hard, so hard I begin to whimper silently. Just when I think he might tear the skin with his teeth, he sucks on it and licks the assaulted area. To say I didn't like it would be a lie.
His fingers stroke my throat, where my pulse is. "Because you'll take everything I give like a good girl".
Oh fuck.