Hello, dear readers.
I know it's been more than a week since I last posted a new chapter, and I'm also aware that I've been slowing down lately. That's why I felt I owed you an explanation and decided to share this announcement.
First, let me reassure you: I am not quitting this story, nor am I planning to take a long break. But to be completely honest, I have been struggling with major depression and anxiety for a long time. I've lived with suicidal thoughts for years and even attempted suicide once in the past. Technically, I should be taking medication regularly, but I sometimes stop because I don't want to feel dependent on it. For the past few months, I haven't been taking my meds, and I've realized recently that I'm slipping back into the same dark hole emotionally and mentally.
When I'm in this state, no matter how much I want to, I just don't have the energy to do much of anything. So I've decided to see my doctor again this week and get a new prescription. Hopefully, the medication will help me stabilize a bit. One of the reasons I started writing this book in the first place was because it helped me cope, but right now, I don't even have the strength for that.
I'm not sharing this to ask for pity, please don't misunderstand. I know I'm far from the only one struggling like this. I just hope you can understand where I'm coming from, and give me a little time to get back on my feet. With luck, I'll recover soon and we can continue at full speed again.
Also, if any of you have been through similar challenges and found ways to manage, or if you're currently in treatment, I would really appreciate hearing about your experiences.
Take care of yourselves, especially your mental health. ❤️