"Let's go home, go home to me, my love." He whispered.
I sobbed as I nodded, I missed him. So much.
Pa ulit ulit nitong dinampian ng halik ang ulo ko.
"Silver, isn't it?" Saad nito habang kumalas sa yakap saakin. Tumangi lamang ako sakanya.
"He's 5?" Hinawakan nito ang kamay ko at naglakad kami.
"Yes, he's turning six tomorrow." Saad ko.
Napahinto ito sa paglakad kaya huminto din ako, nasa likod namin ang mga tauhan nya.
"Tomorrow? May I see him?" He stared at my eyes, his eyes are pleading.
I smiled, "Of course."
"Uh vlad, can I ask you something?" Saad ko habang pinagbuksan ako nito ng pintuan ng kotse, pumasok ako sa kotse nya at dumiretso sya sa driver seat.
"Hm? What is it?" Tanong nya habang kinakabit ang seat belt nya.
"While I was gone... Did you get into a relationship with other women?" Kinakabahan man ay nagawa kong tanungin ito.
"No." Seryoso nitong Sabi, napalingon ako sakanya.
"I didn't get into a relationship with other women, not because I can't but because i don't want to. I've been watching you from afar since you left, I pushed women away who threw themselves at me." He held my gaze, and I can see the reassurance in his eyes.
"Then, w-who's the woman you're with at the convenience store?" Kinakabahang tanong ko.
"Ah, it's agafya's sister." He said and held my hand.
Sister? Agafya had a sister?
"I'll introduce you to my family when I have time. Is that okay with you?" Nagsimula na itong magmaneho.
"I'm afraid they won't like me. B-because of my background." He squeezed my hand lightly.
"If they won't like you, I won't like them too. If they disrespected you, I won't hesitate to make them kneel in front of you just to apologize. Nobody gets to disrespect my woman, but I'm sure they will like you." Saglit itong bumaling ng tingin saakin bago binalik ang tingin sa Daan.
God, to be loved by this man.
"Is there anything you want to ask? I'll answer it all." He caressed my hand.
"What happened to bratva? You said you massacred the other bosses." I asked.
"I did. I massacred 238 bosses of bratva because they've been planning to haunt you down. They want me to kill you, but of course, I won't do it, I'd rather kill thousand of men than kill you." Naka-focus ito sa pagmamaneho.
I won't ask for anything more, I just want him.
He sacrificed a lot for me, he hurt himself when he hurt me. And he didn't deserve that.
We both don't deserve to be hurt by each other. God, don't take this man away from me.
I won't run away from him, I won't leave him. Not because I he won't let me, but because I finally have more reasons to stay. And that reason is enough for me not to leave him.
"Is the bratva ruined now?" I caressed his hand nang lumapat ang kamay nya sa hita ko.
"Nah, It just changed a bit. There's still 18,267 bosses in the organization. Those bosses were my loyal bosses, I killed those bosses who despise your existence." He caressed my thigh.
"Will you make Silver your heir?" I asked.
This one is the one I'm always thinking about, vlad can't break down the bratva because it's for the lifetime and it's part of the government. It is also their protection.
"May I? I mean, if he wanted to." Saglit ako nitong binalingan ng tingin.
"I'm just afraid that Silver wouldn't control it," napakagat ako ng ibabang labi ko nang umangat pa ang kamay nya na nakahawak sa hita ko.
"I will train him myself, I won't raise an asshole. I will raise a man." Seryoso nitong Sabi.
Nakarating kami sa tapat ng gate ng penthouse ko, "I'll go now."
"Take care, you should sleep, hm?" Tumango ako dito.
He pulled me close, and he held the back of my head and kissed my forehead.
Lumabas na ako sa kotse nya, hinintay nya pa ako na makapasok sa gate bago sya umalis.
Pagpasok ko ay kagat labi akong napasandal sa pinto pagka sarado ko.
"Fuck," napahilamos ako sa mukha at hindi mapigilang ngumiti.
Bakit ba ganito ang epekto saakin ni vlad?
Kinabukasan ay nagising ako sa doorbell, napaka aga jusko.
Bumangon ako at hindi pa naman nagising si silver, mahimbing itong nakakapit kay black na nasa tabi nya.
Dumiretso ako ng banyo at naghilamos narinig ko pa ang doorbell at kinuha ko na ang towel tsaka lumabas at bumaba ng hagdan habang nagpupunas ng mukha.
Pagbukas ko ay bumungad sakin si vlad, may dala itong cake at dalawang bouquet ng flowers.
"Good morning," kinagat ko ang loob ng pisnge ko upang mapigilan ngumiti.
"Good morning," I stepped aside and gestured him to go inside.
"Silver is still asleep, hihintayin mo ba?" Tanong ko habang kinuha sakanya ang hawak nyang cake. Inilagay ko iyon sa ref.
"For you," Saad nito at inilahad saakin ang medium bouquet of red roses.
I smiled, "Thankyou. Para kanino yang blue roses?"
"It's for Silver," he placed it on the table.
Nandito kami sa living room at nakaupo sya, "I don't know what will be Silver's reaction but I know he's gonna be happy."
Ngumiti ito sakin at tumango, "Thankyou. For letting him know me."
I sat beside him, napabaling ang tingin ko sa hagdan nang makita si black na gumagapang.
"I think silver is awake," tumayo ako at nilapag ang bouquet sa lamesa.
"I'll wait here," tumango ako sakanya at umakyat na sa hagdan.
Gumapag si black papunta sa garden dahil nakabukas ang sliding door.
Pagpasok ko sa kwarto ay wala na si silver sa kama, nakaayos na rin ang comforter.
Lumingon ako sa banyo na nakabukas ang pintuan, nakatung-tong si silver sa maliit na upuan at naghihilamos sya.
"Baby?" Tawag ko nang matapos ito maghilamos.
"Mamma?" Lumingin ito saakin, tumutulo pa ang tubig sa mukha nito.
"Get dress baby, you have a visitor." I smiled at him.
Napakunot ang noo nito, "Who Mamma?"
"Someone you've been looking for, baby." His eyes narrowed at nagpunas ito ng mukha nya.
Hindi na ito nagsalita pa at nagbihis na lamang ito, nagpakarga ito kaya naman kinarga ko ito.
"Mamma, is it uncle epsilon?" Tanong nito habang nakapatong ang baba nya sa balikat ko.
"No, baby." Saad ko habang bumaba ng hagdan.
Nang makalapit ako sa gawi ni vlad ay binaba ko si silver, humarap si silver kay vlad.
I looked at silver, Tila huminto an lahat sa paligid nya nang makita ang ama nya.
Vlad smiled at him, napakapit si silver sa laylayan ng damit ko.
"Mamma," nanginginig ang boses nito at nag angat ang tingin saakin.
My gaze softened when I saw his teary eyes, "Go baby. It's daddy," I smiled at him at tinapik ko ang likod nito.
Vlad stood up and kneel down in front of him. "Hi, kiddo."
Pumatak ang mga luha ni silver, I crouched down at his side and caressed his back.
I looked at vlad, his gaze softening as he looked at silver.
"Come," inilahad ni vlad ang malaki nyang kamay.
Unti unting inabot iyon ni silver at yumakap sakanya.
He cried.
"Daddy," silver sobbed.
I saw how vlad's eyes watered, he closes his eyes and kisses silver's head.
"Yeah, it's me. I'm sorry," his voice broke.
Patuloy lamang sa pag iyak si Silver sa bisig nya at patuloy lang syang inaalo ni vlad.
Vlad stood up with silver in his arms, hinele nya ito katulad ng ginagawa nya saakin dati.
"Come here, love." Vlad held my lower back and pulled me in his arms.
I buried my face in his neck, he was carrying silver in his one arm while his other arm was on my back. He's caging us in his arms.
This love, It's everything i ever want, it's everything I ever need. And it's here right in front of me.
"Daddy, do you love me?" Pumipiyok na tanong ni silver.
"Of course, kiddo. I'm sorry i left, are you good?" Vlad looked down at him.
Silver nodded, "Don't leave daddy."
"Yes, Silver. Daddy will stay."
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