The news wouldn't shut up about it. Every channel, every feed; tons of theories, arguments, wild speculations about that fallen light. Some say it didn't even fall at all, some says it's a meteor.
There are even more dramatic theories such as it's an angel. Said it had been captured. That the government swept in, sealed off the site, and now it's being kept in some underground facility, far away from the public eye. People talked like they knew something, like they were part of it, like they had proof. But nobody ever did. Bullshit. All of it. Still, for me... it meant something different.
Although I'm relieved I wasn't hallucinating, I'm also disappointed that it turns out it wasn't anything meant for me. I was a fool to let myself think, for a moment, that it was a sign for me as if I'm someone important. I wanted to be special for once. After all those years being neglected, ignored, overlooked... I thought maybe... just maybe… maybe it saw me. Maybe it came for me. I thought this was something meant for me. But no. It wasn't for me. It never was...
The pain came back hard after that. Not just the physical kind, though my body was a wreck too I sat in the quiet, trying not to think, trying not to feel. I needed to get clean and treat my scars, especially my nose. It hadn't stopped aching since the fall. Maybe I should've go to the hospital. But like always, I'd handle it myself. That's how it's always been. Me, treating my own wounds.
At least, that was the plan. Until I opened the cabinet and realized we were out of everything no antiseptic, no gauze, not even aspirin. So, I had no choice. I pulled on a hoodie to hide the mess of my face and headed out. The pharmacy wasn't far. Just another quiet night pretending I wasn't falling apart.
It wasn't the first time I'd been in this condition. Wouldn't be the last. But somehow, this time everything felt heavier than it should've. As if that light, whatever it was, had taken something with it when it disappeared. Something I didn't know I'd been holding onto. Perhaps hope? I don't know. But for the last time I'm hoping. I'm hoping to see it again, just so... I can let it go.