Three days after the win over Mirassol, the rhythm of routine tried to reclaim Thiago.
The sky over São Paulo was heavy with cloud and quiet drizzle, a mirror of Thiago's mind. He walked alone toward the Palmeiras training ground with his hood drawn, boots slung over one shoulder, and a soft pressure behind his eyes that hadn't lifted since the final whistle.
It wasn't nerves. It wasn't even doubt. It was something subtler, slower—a creeping awareness that growth wasn't always rewarded with clarity. That despite delivering an assist and another 90-minute performance, he still lived in the gaps between.
He entered the complex just as Rafael was finishing his stretches by the weight benches. Rafael glanced up and gave him a slight nod, which Thiago returned. No banter today. Just movement.
The session opened with fitness tracking, pulse checks, muscle elasticity tests. Coach Eneas watched from the corner, stone-faced, as staff ran the numbers. Thiago completed his reps with precision but without intensity, mentally logged in but not emotionally lifted. He thought of Camila's texts from the night before—short, warm, but muted. They both felt the ache of time, of silence stretching too long between moments of connection.
When it came time for ball work, Thiago re-engaged. Possession drills in narrow quarters, positional awareness tests. Nando worked across from him today—the coaching staff had begun alternating their stations. It kept them from clashing, but not from watching each other.
And watch, they did. Every touch, every decision, every rotation became a point of contrast. Where Nando would burst through tight angles with force, Thiago would lean into delayed passes, timing them by heartbeat rather than pressure. Neither was better. But one felt louder. And louder gets noticed.
Midway through the session, Eneas called for a scrimmage.
"Full width. One-touch for the first five minutes. Open after."
Thiago lined up left, Rafael inside, Nando opposite. The ball zipped in—chaotic, sharp, urgent. One-touch forced intuition. Thiago kept it clean, finding seams in the chaos. A dropped shoulder, a toe-poke release, a diagonal shift. But as the five-minute restriction lifted, the scrimmage grew physical. Nando turned up his heat.
In the 17th minute, Nando received on the break and cut inside. Thiago tracked the play, but the ball was already gone. The next pass was meant for Rafael. Thiago tried to intercept—a split second late. The collision was inevitable.
They both dropped.
A stunned silence fell over the field.
Thiago stood first, hand to hip. Nando followed, brushing off grass and offering no expression. Eneas whistled sharply.
"Enough. Reset."
The tension held.
Later, in the locker room, Rafael broke the silence with a simple phrase: "You both want it. Just don't forget we all wear the same badge."
Neither responded. But both heard it.
That night, Thiago lay in bed staring at the ceiling. The rain had returned, tapping the dorm window in slow rhythm. He opened his phone.
Camila: "How did training go?"
He hesitated. Then replied: *"Like fighting underwater."
She responded minutes later: *"Then come up for air. Video call?"
When her face appeared, the tension broke.
They spoke softly. Clara popped in with a paper crown on her head, demanding to know if Thiago had scored another goal. Thiago laughed, promised her one soon. Camila asked if he'd been writing again. He hadn't. She told him to try.
After the call, he did.
A paragraph in his notebook:
"There are days when the ball feels like truth and others when it feels like a test. The key isn't whether you pass, but whether you keep showing up for the next one."
The next morning, Dr. Fontes met him in her office. He didn't speak right away. She waited.
"I feel invisible sometimes," he said.
"That can happen when you're growing faster inside than the world notices outside," she replied. "But invisibility isn't absence. It's preparation."
"How do I know when I'm ready?"
"You won't. Not fully. But readiness isn't a switch. It's a muscle. Train it, and it'll hold when it's time."
He nodded slowly.
That weekend, Palmeiras played away against Oeste. Thiago remained on the bench for the first 70 minutes. The game was tight, 1–1, with both sides wrestling midfield dominance. At 71, Eneas made the call. #17 ON.
Thiago stepped into the noise. And this time, he didn't look for clarity.
He looked for the ball.
A feint, a press, a late run into the half-space. He wasn't trying to dazzle. He was trying to thread meaning into the minutes. He won a corner in the 76th, drew a foul in the 82nd, and played a clever one-two in the 89th that nearly unlocked the winner.
Final whistle: 1–1. A draw. But the match report would mark: "#17 showed initiative and balance under late pressure."
Back in the dorm, Thiago checked the System:
Time Played: 19 min
Touches: 12
Pass Accuracy: 92%
Key Actions: 3
System Rating: 7.1
Coach Impression: Steady contribution
Club Confidence: 85/100
He exhaled.
Then opened his notebook.
"Some days the fire is quiet. But it still burns."