I was seated is my room colledge was called off for that day .
Even though I do have 2 roommate they are both not here right now.
That's the reason why the room is quite .
And one that has been eating me is
Should I be guilty or not
It's not like I killed him , but he died exactly like how I depicted it.
To be honest he desreves it.
I sighed
I stood up walking towards the drawer . I picked up a box of charcoal pencils .
I was not suprised by it looking old but untouched . As it had been years since I recived it . But to me they were a form of comfort.
Not them really but the person who gave it to me .
I knew I did not have that person beside me atleast I have a memory of them .
As I held it in my hand i just looked at it
"Am I wrong , Maria?. "
As soon as I completed my sentence I heard a knock in the door .
Those two must be back .
I placed the pencils in the table and walked towards the door to open it .
Just as I expected it was those two .
I felt too awkward to be quite but I was used to it . So I stayed quite .
Matthew patted my shoulder . And gave me a bright smile .
We brought some pizza and drinks over .
Nathan lifted up the box of pizza.
What about a cozy little dinner Silas .
I couldn't help but smile
"Why not"
I wonder if I deserve a roomates like this .
On one side I have people like Callum in my life and then them .
Maybe God does balance it.
We soon seated ourselves .
And then Nathan spoke up
"Hey I heard when police checked that cctv footage of that last night , like the one from the gate , they saw that Callum without hesitation stabbed him self and then stumbled into the fountain ."
"You mean that was suicide ?" Matthews asked while bitting a slice
While I looked him dead in the eye .
"Suicide " I repeated
" Even though he was a bastard rest in peace dude . I don't what he went through to kill himself that way "
Matthew said his normal tone
But that stuck to my head
What he went through to kill himself .
This feeling of everything beign fine . I feel it's. Not true . And I've got myself into something hideous .
Nathan poked me
"Bro you zoning out "
"No its nothing "
And then the it ended normal
At least that's what I thought .
Until I woke up in the middle of the night . I kept hearing that voice again and asking .
It asked me
"How do you feel , how do you feel after killing ?"
It almost felt as if the voice was just wispering in my ears .
The sir in the room almost had a choke hold on me . It was as if something was stuck on my throat. I couldn't bare it stood up and left the room and got out of the room for some fresh air .
I looked at my watch 3:09
The long corridor gave me some room to breath . But that lasts for seconds only .
"You killed him "
The voice was coming from behind but
I was leaning against the wall .
A cold wind was all it took from me to rush towards that door
" You, no one else "
I open the door and rushed inside closing it behind .
I took a sign of relief and leaned against the door.
" You think you can hide Silas "
The voice was now comming from inside the room .
Matthew bed was close to the door and I moved there quickly .
I shook him until he woke up . But the voice just got louder and louder as if it was walking towards me .
"What's wrong " he said in a sleepy voice
" Matthew can you not hear it it's right in the room "
" Hear what ?!"
That two words gave me shivers down my spine .
The voice now felt like it was sitting beside me
" You killed him Silas "
"Shut up I did not ! I did not kill him "
That voice suddenly went quite as if it was smirking .
Sweat was running down my body . My throat dry .
"Knock" "knock"
There was a knocking on at the door .
"Silas are you in there "
By far everything that happens this was the thing that made me regret every decision I made up until now.
That was my mother voice .
For me it was not a sound of comfort
But one of horror .
It felt as if I had gone back in time .
And like I used to do I went under the table . In the same position I used to sit .
I could feel myself shaking but I was uable to think anything .
"Click "
I heard the door open .
I was uable o think of what to do
And then suddenly I heard a ringing sound .
My eyes opened to the same room but in my bed .
My body was covered in sweat and could tell I tried I cried during my sleep
I ran a hand through my head .
"A dream just a dream nothing more just a dream "
I breathed heavily trying to calm myself down .
-end of chapter
"Is it just a dream or fragment of past that should not be known ?"