Chapter 22 – Measured in Scars
The skies over Tanzaku Quarters were grey that morning. Not stormy, just subdued, like the town itself had decided to breathe a little slower for once. Gone were the clamor of gamblers and shouting vendors from days past. Even the usual haze of incense and alcohol that hung in the air seemed thinner.
Tsunade hadn't left the inn all day.
Inside a modest private room above the gambling den, the once-legendary healer now sat cross-legged on a floor cushion, arms folded beneath her chest, observing Hajime with a rare stillness. Her expression was unreadable, but her eyes, sharp as scalpels, tracked his every movement.
Hajime sat nearby, hunched over a scroll nearly as wide as he was tall. His hands moved with care, unrolling, flattening, refolding as needed, his fingers stained faintly with ink. Around him, several more scrolls lay open, diagrams of chakra circulatory systems, anatomical renderings of organs, muscle layers, pressure points, and surgical pathways.
It had been nearly a month since she had taken him on as a student. No fanfare. No warm welcomes. Just a promise that if he failed to keep up, she'd toss him into the street without a second glance.
So far, he hadn't given her a reason.
She had to admit, though only in her mind, that the boy was something else. Not a genius, not in the genius-of-a-generation kind of way. He struggled. He failed. He tripped over terms and rewrote definitions five times before remembering them. But his memory was growing like a tree in sunlight.
It was unnatural.
No ordinary village child could memorize full diagrams of internal organs in a week, or recite the functions of the lymphatic system in detail after a night of study. Tsunade knew this. She'd seen hundreds of people. Only one other had come close to this speed, and that Guy had Defected the village, by doing Experiments on his fellow villager.
She shook the thought away.
Hajime paused, tapping his forehead with the butt end of his brush. "Pancreas… regulates sugar," he muttered. "Behind the stomach, connected to… duodenum. Hormones… insulin and glucagon."
He blinked, then wrote it down with confident strokes.
Tsunade leaned back slightly. "You're muttering now. That a side effect of learning too much, or do you talk to your scrolls?"
Hajime glanced at her. "Neither. Talking helps me remember."
"Hmph." She sipped from her now-cold tea. "I'll have to start charging you rent if you plan to keep reciting textbooks in my presence."
Hajime allowed himself a smile, brief but real. "I'm almost done with this section."
Tsunade arched an eyebrow. "That would make it three chapters today. Not bad. But if you're just memorizing words and not meaning, you're wasting both our time."
He closed the scroll and set it aside, his expression growing serious. "I understand the theory. I can recite the chakra pathway of the heart, name all the major blood vessels, even draw the sympathetic and parasympathetic networks. But I know that's not enough."
Tsunade tilted her head. "Oh?"
"I still can't see the body the way a healer does," Hajime admitted. "I don't just want to know where the organs are. I want to feel how they function, how chakra flows through them, what goes wrong when a person is dying."
Tsunade regarded him carefully. That answer wasn't memorized. It was personal. Honest.
"You're not wrong," she said after a beat. "Words are just bones. Real medicine lives in the flesh. And in mistakes. Mostly mistakes."
Her fingers drifted absently to her side, the spot where old wounds still ached from time to time. "You'll earn more from failure than any scroll."
"I've failed plenty," Hajime said quietly. "But… I haven't had to pay the price yet. Not like real medics do."
Tsunade didn't reply for a moment. Her mind had gone elsewhere, white sheets, blood on her hands, Dan's final breath.
She stood abruptly. "Good. You're aware of what you lack. That's the first mark of a proper healer."
She walked toward her desk and pulled open a drawer, retrieving another scroll. It was thicker than the others, worn around the edges but well-kept.
"This," she said, tossing it onto the mat beside him, "contains records of my earliest medical cases. Diagnoses, treatment plans, post-op results. I'm not giving it to you to memorize. I want you to read it and tell me what went wrong."
Hajime blinked. "You want me to analyze your mistakes?"
"I want you to find the cracks," she said. "No surgery is perfect. No jutsu is flawless. If you want to be more than a chakra-channeling butcher, you have to learn to think around the edge of your own skills. Understand?"
"Yes," he said, bowing low. "Thank you, Tsunade-sama."
She waved him off and sat back down. "Don't thank me until you've bled for it. Reading that scroll's easy. Knowing what it means, what it cost, is the hard part."
That evening, as candles flickered and the town's laughter returned to the street below, Hajime was still reading. His eyes scanned line after line, notes of patients too far gone, chakra systems collapsing from stress, post-operative infections, botched healing attempts from rookies who panicked under pressure.
Each story carried a lesson.
Each name was a scar.
He could feel the weight of it. And beneath it, the pressure of his own ambitions.
He touched his chest, over his heart.
The geneseed still waited.
But not yet.
First, he had to be worthy of it.
And tonight, he took one step closer.
End of Chapter 22 – Measured in Scars