Jane wakes up from a deep sleep she realizes it's the first day of class. She has had the most incredible night of rest. Dreams of the future; excited about what's to come. The line that she has a set of mind of Love with the dash freedom. She's excited about the new world she's embarking on. Learning all of the things within the nursing medsurg that she has been so long preparing for. Performing the hand on skills like injections, IVs, lab draw, EKG all the flutter of her heart. Excited about making the lives of people going through illness short, acute, or chronic helping to be a part of their recovery. She didn't know that she would actually embark on a path of mystery. A path of enlightenment and of Awakening in which you see with your eyes closed.She steps into this role and gives of herself. Prepared for the day one thing she does have is excitement for the mystery. Ready for the education of a lifetime. Not realizing she's on the precipice The Fool steps of never being the same as she woke up this morning. You can say that Jane woke up this morning from a deep sleep. She awoke from asleep but she did not realize that in one year's time she would start down a path of dark night of the soul. Finding a love for herself that she had never known. Invoking a passion that can never be reproduced or duplicated. Jane nervously dresses herself for that first day. it's most definitely exhilarating let's start the first chapter off right is Jane embarks on her first day not knowing she's going to meet a student nursing vampire let's start here. Plus this was not the first or last she started to be aware of....
Dang it Jane hurry up and get your things in the car or you're going to be late. So she jumps into her car that this car is pretty much a bucket but it's paid off pretty decent and gets her from a to z. Jane is typically always on time busy works two to three jobs and it's always always finding the way around all the obstacles that pops into her field. She gets in the car she starts it up turns on some tunes and cranks it up. From day to day you can listen to from day to day she could be listening to any form of music whether they be pop rock r&b classics the topic but on this day she's listening to one of her favorites. A great tune called Golden sung by Jill Scott on her favorites. Just from the from the sound of it golden living my life like it's golden oh just kiss me pumped up makes me remember I have a purpose in this life and the things that I want to do and the desires I have they feel my future. And she hit the repeat button and makes her way 30 minutes across town to drive up to the class but she starts her nursing Journey.
Jane always feeling like she has somewhere to be somewhere to go somewhere to clock in clock out and only having a 45 minutes to an hour to make it to the next destination to make it to the next job to clock in clock out make it home wash clothes clean the car fall asleep and wake up and all we have 7 to 8 hours in between she's always busy. It seems like she would have the energy for five people. But starting up this class for her she's getting more rest than she's got in the last 6 months to get up and go to class 5 days a week for seven and a half hours a day and then work at night and on the weekend what's more rest than she had gotten in a long time do the fact that she had been working three jobs and picking up overtime at one job or another meaning she was working around the clock before starting school so today felt like a breeze. Meeting with the instructors getting books paying fees meeting everybody she's going to see in her class is going forward is exciting and overwhelming a lot of stop and go seeing new faces knowing that those faces will fade away as the weeks come is the work is harder. So as the first day starts Jane realizes that she's going to meet or not a lot of new faces these are adult faces no longer the children people of the past these are new people you know nothing else. Still with the optimism filled with the optimism and a heart that only sees people doing good. Even though she has seen the world do evil things harmful things and experience of multitude of sad issues in life already. There's somewhere in her that still never gave up on that optimism that people are still good the people still love the people still care. And even with all that love in her heart she's going to assume see that some people come around to still too take too hard to destroy that's when she realized that they are vampires among Us willing to take whatever is available to be taken even if that's by stealing even if that's the by taking from an unsuspecting person not knowing any better not wanting to see things for the reality that they are.
Anyway the first days the first couple of weeks are a breeze but as time goes on studies increase you're going from Hands-On skills drip factors nursing math all the hassle. Learn about how how we feel about life being healthy being ill being alive and also our own death. Not realizing that to be a nursing student you had to think of not only about people healing the people being chronically ill you have to think about just managing the disease and then ultimately how you feel about death how you feel about the comfort measures at the end of life. Jane didn't realize that she would have to face all of those questions that most of us don't want to talk about until it happens and then we have to figure it out. But she had to be asked the question of what would be said if she was already on her deathbed or a passed on what would her life's work have been about what would her life be when she was gone and how she felt about taking care of a patient that was uncomfort measures. I know that might sound gruesome to some but at the end of the day we'll have to face it one way or another. One thing she could say and it's always remain true When I'm gone or when I'm close to gone I want to know that I had loved someone loved me and I helped the world be a better place and maybe was able to teach someone something that could keep their lives going and help them for the future. The days go on tests come in and quizzes and so many things back to back one day you learn something the next day you quiz later in the day you have a test that's what it went on for weeks and weeks learn something new the next day a quiz later in their test a test or two everyday can make the mind kind of spin out. But the great thing about it is that she had embarked on such a great journey that she was able to meet new people one of those people is Mia. Mia is this strong and dependent loving quirky with a sense of hopeless romance meats the real world. She has the grace of a woman two times her age the spunk of a woman have her age and the real world ideas of a middle-aged man I know I said a lot about that but in so many ways she had this useful exuberance with this wisdom and that real world masculine outlooking view of the truth. Seems like two matches too unlikely matches I should say but they became a great balance of act like you don't see it and just go versus wait a minute hold on don't you see that mess that you getting ready to make. There's also others that have been there for a while like Jasmine Jasmine is a bubbly sometimes clueless appearance meets laughter meets home life meets homemaker meets I want to break out of this scene. Jasmine has been at this time a great friend for years and barking on this path together so it seems. A friend close in age a mother wife homemaker sister confidant and all around fun person to be around. Always love into bounce ideas and find ways to smile and enjoy life a little bit more. So as time goes on when matriculating from our first trimester not a semester I said a trimester. So one year course a blast through practical nursing social say. We make it through the first two trimesters. We finished up our first set of clinicals going into different nursing settings learning some of the behind the scenes of what it's going to look like for us to be live in action the nurse the person that advocates a person that makes sure things are right the person that sees the signs the symptoms and can actually calculate and put together the pieces to make sense of what's going on to get the right information the observable information to the right place to the right person to make sure that that person has safe outcomes for the future. Now I know there's someone probably reading right now saying what is this lady talking about but the point is this is just a part of her journey needing to understand how to what when how does this work what's needed information and what's background information what should be highlighted and what should be left out how should I advocate for the patient while advocating for myself while advocating for others it all took a twist and turn but this was helpful information she didn't yet know she was going to even need for her own life. Jasmine graduates ahead of her and goes on to start her studies to take that NCLEX in order to get those license from the state. Now is Jane continues on until her third term this is where it starts to get a little bit tricky. Said tricky me trick or treat yeah trick or treat will you be tricked or will it be a treat this is true this is at the first of the year but just wait till spring just wait till hot there or summer just wait a little bit longer before you don't even realize that you're being bit that your life force is being drained just wait.
Dang Jane Jane wake up wake up. Jane sitting in third trimester and back seat for the second or third row seats. But she sits there thinking about I have made it through 8 months and they're 4 months ago. She sits there dreaming the moment that she can walk across that pen service to say I finish this thing and now I start a new. She's so far the classmates and she is gone this 8 months late some had fallen away but most have stayed sitting there thinking what will this trimester be like at this point you're a senior you know it's time to fly on this time of show what you made of. Sitting there thinking about 20 more minutes before class starts I've been here early just about every day and thus far I've only missed 2 days not intentionally. She sits there all of a sudden there's a new person on the block. A new person walks in it um. Have you ever had that moment where it seems like everything pauses kind of like a waiting to exhale moment. Well this would have been like a waiting exhale moment a pause and time. The newcomer walks in someone she get to see before. He walks in and all of a sudden sound goes out and they only sound she hears it sounds from afar a sound that's not audible or hasn't been audible before there were no words only a sound that can't be repeated a sound that only is heard in her mind and in our heart a vibration then no one else could hear nor see nor smell nor taste but still and yet it was spoken to her on a level that no one else could understand. Jane was unsure of what that was but the sound was so sweet you're so ancient and ancient sound the humming the buzzing the Genesis quoi of it all. Let's say she never experienced my mom that she had to stop and pause and say who is this who is this that has stopped me to look with my eyes my ears my heart my soul has stopped me to take a look a deep look along look a little that says hello wait a day are you still there are you there hello anybody home. And she said they're looking and staring and double taking and staring again inside I looking. It says if pieces of sand that have been stored away a hundred years a thousand years has simply found a way out through a broken crack and spilled Out into the air and form this physical specimen that was created for her just her own ocular perception. Will call this ocular perception this physical specimen Tee. Yes I said tea with two e's and you could say Tee he was definitely going to be tea, or teaching Jane what she had not expected to learn new lessons in love, passion, desire, deception, depth, obsession, cravings, hunger, and spine tingling attraction. Now this was the stuff that Jane had never experienced. She had waited a great deal of time to find something passionate. Passion in a person excitement that was real. Another not just doing this or that because others are doing it. No just having a partner just because it's what you're told to do. Even though she didn't talk about it much she was definitely a hopeless romantic. Wanted to find that person where she say I want to fall into your arms. I want to be here; I could be anywhere but I have a strong desire to be here with you. This is the person I let my guard down with, because it's my choice. I have something that I feel for you can you. Imagine learning what you have prepared to learn while; experiencing something you never thought you would see this lifetime. It's a hard tell and a hard route but I'm sure it's something she'll never forget about. She learns today and then teaches tomorrow. Lesson Learned is a lesson plan for her students in the future. Her Stumble, their Fumble, and the Vampire (Nursing Case Study of it all) Let get into the SBAR of it all.