It's been a week since I walked out of Lucian's mansion. A part of me wants to regret, a part of me wants to walk back to them and cry like I always do, beg for them to see me hurting, a part of me wants to see Jonathan again, and beg him to see me. Was our three-year relationship not worthy?
I want him to explain, to tell me why he did it. But some things are better left alone and not explained. I still stand in front of the mirror questioning everything, I still cry in the shower, but I am not going back. I am human, and it is normal if I feel hurt. I am done means I am done.
That family is a pain in my ass. Jonathan is now my trash, and it is best if I let them pick it up for me.
'' Winy, winy, winy'' Miya burst into my dressing room shouting out my nickname, interrupting my make-up session. I flinch in shock, so did the make-up artist and hairstylist.
''What.. what is the matter?'' tilting my head in her direction to see her panting from her run. Her dark brown hair was already a mess from running, her brown eyes travelled the room, not expecting the extra presence.
'' he, he'' Miya lets out an awkward laugh.
''Sorry, sorry to interrupt'' She hurries to my side and bends to my leave, and I tilt my head in her direction Did you see the news?'' whispering
'' What news?'' The curiosity in my tone is clear
'' How can you be asking me that?'' she lets out anxiously before her gaze fell on the make-up artist, then the stylist. '' You ladies should give us a little privacy..'' Miya spoke, standing straight with that tone of authority that she used on everyone but me '' I'll call you back in a few minutes''
''Oh, sure,'' the make-up artist smiled while the stylist only nodded, and they both walked out. Miya closed the door after them and hurried to my side
''How can you be so relaxed? The news is all over the media. Everyone is talking about it''
'' Talking about what?'' Miya brings out her phone, scrolls on it, then hands it to me. Headline: Jonathan Ran Vic, son of Richard Ran Vic, announces his new engagement to Lucian's youngest daughter, Julia Lucian. I bit my lower lip at the information, rendered speechless '' huh'' was all that could escape my lips as I read my news further down.
With no information about what happened between him and Lucian's adopted daughter, and our beloved actress Winter Lucian. Neither have we heard words from Winter Lucian. Fans are curious about their sudden, unannounced break-up and are flooding the media with questions, hoping to get a response from Winter Lucian from her latest interview with '' Stars Tonight''
''What is this, Winy?'' My curious manager spoke as I went through more news about the break-up and engagement.
''Wow'' forcing a smile, but my lips shook, exposing my pain. I stood up and walked to the sofa while handing Miya her phone. '' It took them long enough to finally announce it''
''Wait, you knew?'' Miya hurries to sit next to me. Her eyes flashing a mixture of shock and worry ''When did you two break up? Why didn't you tell me'' I force a brighter smile ''Don't give me that smile, Winy. I have known you almost all my life, to know when you are hurting''
'' hh'' I let out helplessly, falling back on the sofa, resting my head ''What do you want me to do? Cry?'' I took in a deep breath '' If I cry, then I will have to start my make-up all over again''
'' This is not the time to joke, Winy'' Miya knows me the best. She has been my best friend since college and my manager when I entered the entertainment industry, certainly she knows when I am faking
'' hh''
Miya pushes herself closer, taking my hands in hers gently. She feels sorry for me. I hate when people look at me with pity '' What happened between you two?''
'' Didn't you read the news?'' raising an eyebrow.
'' Don't tell me that jerk cheated on you with your sister?'' I close my eyes, shutting out the tears as the image of that day comes to mind.
I gave her a slight nod of approval.
'' I knew it. I hated the jerk from the start, especially when he was always too busy to show up for you and when he compares you with your sister for being gentle... I can't believe'' Miya fires in rage '' And that bitch of a sister. How could she get engaged with her sister's boyfriend?'' I smiled to myself, glad I decided to keep my engagement with Jonathan a secret. It would have been a bigger issue today. '' She is always after what you have, despite already being the favourite in the family... Damn I want to kill someone''
'' You will be jailed for murder,'' she rolls her eyes
'' I know, that is why my ex is still alive'' grumbling, and I held back my laugh. I sat up again to face her
'' Thanks, Miya, that kind of brightens my mood''
'' I mean it.. I would have killed a lot''
'' I know'' smiling
'' hh. So what do you plan to do''
'' I plan not to talk about it''
'' You have to because your interview with Stars tonight is in less than an hour, and certainly they are going to ask about it. This is fresh news, and Stats tonight will grab the opportunity to be the one airing your opinion first''
'' arrr. Can't we just cancel?''
'' If we had seen it earlier today, then we would have cancelled but it to late. That's why you have to tell me what you plan to say. I don't want your usual habit of surprising me on television''
'' nothing. I.. I don't want to do anything, Miya'' my voice came out shakily.
'' Nothing?'' she repeats, and I nod
''Nothing, I don't want to do anything, left for me, I don't want to do this interview or act in a new movie or be seen. I want space'' Miya size me up, I see the understanding in her eyes before she nods
'' I know what you need,'' she smiles
''Good day, beautiful ladies and handsome gentlemen across the globe. Here we are again tonight on another episode of Stars tonight. It is such a wonderful and eventful night, so get your popcorn, cookies or whatever and sit tight because with us tonight is our wonderful, beautiful and amazing Winter Lucian''
I sat quietly, with a smile as always, in the studio as the MC spoke to the camera with so much positive energy, like the professional he is. Before introducing me. The camera is now on me in a live show.
I have been to several live shows, but I never get used to it. I don't think any artist ever does. We just fake it.
'' Miss Winter, how are you?''
'' I am alive'' with a small smile and a shrug
'' It is so nice to have you here again. I wouldn't lie, I have been looking forward to another interview with you since the last time you were here''
'' So have I.. You are a very fun person to chat with''
'' You flutter me, Miss Winter'' He laughs. ''Well, today we have a lot to talk about, but something came up that I can not hold back'' He began, getting into business, and I nod in understanding '' Something I can not resist getting your opinion on ''
'' You are curious about the engagement and breakup up right?'' I force a smile
'' I am curious? The whole fandom is curious. Everyone is trying to get their head around what is happening. I mean, from you to your sister?''
'' I am also still trying to grasp my head around the situation'' maintaining calm and composure. I did my best to make my breathing even. I can't show weakness. My gaze dropped to my fingers only to notice it was shaking. Fuck, I should have just told Miya I couldn't do this
'' Are you saying you are not aware?''
'' Oh no, I was. We broke up two months ago, but I couldn't announce the break-up because, you know'' shrugged '' it hurt'' forcing a smile but anyone would clearly see the pain behind it.
'' wow. Yeah, it does'' The sudden gentleness in his tone is clear. He feels sorry for me. I bit my lower lip again, holding back my frown. '' So two months after breakup he gets engaged to your sister?'' raising an eyebrow
'' It is what it is, I guess''
'' wow... And what was your reaction to this?''
'' I don't know,'' I shrugged, '' I didn't know what to say or how to react when I discovered.. i guess we are just not meant to be''
'' The fact that you are still holding a smile is amazing... Why did you two break up?'' an important question. I do not have an answer to that. So funny, we didn't even break up before he got my sister pregnant
''Can we skip this topic, sorry?'' I honestly don't want to talk about it
'' Oh... I understand that this is a sensitive topic for you, Miss Winter, and I apologise for making you uncomfortable''
''It's ok,'' he nodded. ''Can I say something?''
''Please go ahead'' With the brightest smile I can carry. I looked at the camera and said.
Walking off the stage after the sudden announcement I just made, which will be the headline for days. My kneels kept shaking, making it hard for my to walk straight, my heart beating so loud I could hear it in my ear. I haven't cried properly since that day and do not plan to do it now in front of all this people. I walk pass the crew members who gave me that worried and sad look and I only smiled at their pity.
Taking the turn to the hallway, looking for Miya. I suddenly stepped on my dress, twisting my ankle, my face almost meeting the ground. Suddenly, someone caught my wrist, pulling me up, arms wrapped around my waist. Holding me firmly in place.
''Careful'' a calm, familiar voice rings in my ear, making me lift my head to meet those beautiful, glacial, electric blue eyes. Here I am in the arms of Xanthus Nicholas. One of the world's top celebrities and the founder of many businesses, who is also the owner of Stars tonight.
All my encounters with Xanthus are from a distance and never this close. Now I see why he is known to have more male works than female. Fuck he is beautiful. His dark hair in a neat cut, sharp jawline with beautiful kissable lips '' You will hurt yourself'' his voice so smooth