In life you learn that love can take two turns. It can be really sweet at the beginning but it can hurt a lot during the way. I never thought I could come to care for someone as much as I care for him. I never thought that I could become so scared of losing someone.
He became the reason behind my smiles and my laughters. My mood depends on how he is feeling all the time. This guy made me feel warmth again, I feel like I'm breathing again, I am no longer drowning. I'm becoming more selfish day by day wanting his warmth every second, wanting to be in his arms every time I get the chance, wanting to lay my head on his chest and just hear his heartbeat and his breathing. I always thought that I didn't need love or affection but I realized that having him next to me and providing me with his love and warmth....I needed it more then I thought.
Whenever I see him...I see a light in his eyes whenever we lock eye sight. The way he smiles with both his eyes and mouth tells me a lot about him. He has soft eyes, those dark brown eyes of him became my favourite place to look at. It became my peace. Those same eyes shows me sadness sometimes, and that's when I know that he's battling a storm all alone, and I could only hope that it passes and that he survives it. Those eyes thaught me how to see beauty in someone, to see the bright side of life. Those same dark brown eyes filled with all the colors of the world has made me afraid of losing him.
The slight smile he pulls whenever I look at him. That same smile that won me over the first time I saw him at work. When I first met you I thought a guy like you would never set eyes on a girl like me. I went to a club and hoped that I would see that smile of yours but you never came. The second time I went to the club I saw that smile of yours and knew that if I ever have a chance I would want to keep that smile of yours. I danced with you and believe it or not I felt something but couldn't really put my finger on it. Little by little I got to know you and that's when I felt it again, that connection.
I never thought you could crave someone but not precisely sex. His warmth, his attention, his eyes, his smile, his hands, his body, his emotions those are the things that attracts me to him. His way of thinking, his respect for me, his honesty, the way he loves attracts me to his soul.
Is it possible to say that I think I found my soulmate? Is it right to say that I wouldn't want to meet anyone but him? Is it selfish of me to say that I want to spend the rest of my days next to him? I think I found my best friend. I think I found the person I want to be with forever.