Why do I allow myself to get angry or feel frustrated when things don't go well for me? Is it possible that this build up anger inside of me is becoming worse everyday?
I know that I feel a little happier lately....but its a temporary happiness and that's something I should start accepting. I have to start by telling myself that I cannot let my happiness depend on anyone because at the end of the day you might get betrayed. I actually know that i will get disappointed along the way, I don't know why I'm allowing it to happen again.
Two weeks ago I saw everything happen before it did. Is that possible? I was mentally prepared but emotionally unprepared.
You started to become distant and no matter what I did I was losing grip. I told myself that if I mattered to you, you wouldn't let go that easily....but I guess it was easier for you to let go then holding on. I couldn't fully grasp the idea of you being absence next to me. I didn't even give you a last hug. The last time we saw each other I didn't even tell you how much I love you. The meaning behind every action I occurred. You weren't just a random guy I talked with and hang around with, you were the only person I've felt a connection with and that made you different.
That simply wasn't enough for you. The only thing I wish for you is to start seeing the little things people do for you and appreciate it. Good women don't come twice in a row, you'll have to wait a lifetime to come across another one. Appreciation is the key to everything.
You've taught me a good lesson. No matter how good things seem its not always the reality. I'm okay with that you know. Disappointments are part of life, the more you get the wiser you become.
I am hurting right now but I´m learning at the same time. Yes I do feel broken. The reality is that I'm hurt. I'm not precisely hurt that you didn't wanted to continue what was taking place but I'm hurt because of the promises that you made and left them empty.
That move taught me a lot about you as a person. You still have a lot to learn, your still a kid that is not conscious that every action has its consequences. He didn't know what he caused.
I could tell you....You've made someone hate the thought of being alive all over again. That person was doing fine until she fell in love and became vulnerable around you. She was satisfied with what she had but now she can't go back to that. She's not sure how to go back to being okay. She hates everything and she hates herself more then anything right now. She doesn't want to continue anything.
You keep on saying "try to be good" but you know why its easier for you to say that? Maybe because it was a relief putting a stop to an act? It'll always be an unsettled question to me. You thought everything would be okay if you said lets be friends? You thought it was a good idea but for who? I just wished you listened to your dad earlier because now its too late.