Season: Summer
Weather: Scorching hot weather. Smoke continues to blanket the city and pervade into the house, making everyone cough. Thankfully, the guys bought a few air filters to help clear the smoke. All that can be seen of the city is the heavy brown smoke. The airports and most of the traffic have come to a standstill.
Day of the week: Wednesday
Date: 22nd February, 2024
The office remains closed and people have been encouraged to remain at home and indoors due to the poor air quality outside.
Someone read yesterday's journal entry, resulting in me being booked in for Psychological counselling. I'm not going. I'm not going. And no matter how they talk at me or are going to try and drag me there, I'm not going. Not going means not going.
There's nothing wrong with me. Isn't the journal here? Journaling is a kind of reflective self-examination and therapy. I'm happy with this. I'm not going anywhere. Not online. Not on the phone. Not face to face.
Damn it, you guys. Quit the preaching. I'm not anxious. I'm not depressed. There's nothing wrong with me. Everyone has negative thoughts some times. Do I have to be so careful when talking to myself in my own journal now?
I'm not the anxious one. You guys are. I'm calm. Very calm, despite the fact that I have very little privacy or dignity left in front of you two bosses. You've invaded my private life and I'm now stuck here living with you two sticky beaks who only knows how to give orders and tell people to do things. I'm telling you. I'm not the one with the problem. It's you two. You two pent up, blue balled, feeling stifled, frustrated men.
If you can't handle it anymore, just hump me and be done with it. It's hump day, isn't it? Why not? See. I've already given you guys both permission. Just do it and get it out of your system. And then I'll move away into my own place and we'll all go back to our old distant relationships, everything drifting back into its proper place. You go back to being the distant bosses I have never met and I'll go back to being the maniac worker who only knows how to work on the floor.
Come. What's stopping you?
Let's end these ambiguous relationships once and for all. Do I need to seduce you guys? You know what? Fine. Let me be a seductress for a night.
I don't know how to do it. I've never done it before. Seduce somebody, that is. But how hard can it be when both you men react at the sight of me at the moment?